Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Wed, 23 Mar 2005 17:42:33 GMT

Hello! I've decided I miss you all and thus my new LJ is naya_darling Hope I see you all there!!!!!

"Parting is such sweet sorrow"

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Wed, 16 Feb 2005 19:40:40 GMT

Hi guys. Im so sorry to do this to you.... but this will be my last post. Things are far too busy over here, and I no longer have the time to comment or even reply to comments.
This is nothing personal against any of you, you've all been great and I love ya. Good luck with everything and I hope to talk to you all again when I've the time to handle my end of the deal.
BEST OF WISHES TO YOU ALL.

"...if you're a bird than I'm a bird..." - The notebook

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Sat, 12 Feb 2005 00:43:13 GMT

Alright, quick basic and to the point entry.

1. Not moving out today, moving out on Monday. Nevermind that its Valentine's day and that I definatly have plans.
2. Car no longer is an issue. Mom and dad are loaning me the money for to get the transmission REBUILT with a warentee(jay =P)...which is costing 3x more than my car... but since everything else in the car is brand new...no kafuffle.
3. Still hate my job, though its more tolerable.
4. Busy as all hell.
5. Am still not a morning person.
6. Sent Jay his Valentine's and sent one for this parents as well, it seemed to go over very nice indeed.
7. TRYING to get particular V-day gift for Jayness...not having much luck.
8. James is the best boyfriend in the universe. I realize some of you will disagree and try and place your boyfriends name in there instead, but you're wrong.
9. Said boyfriend is coming up for spring break yeehaw.
10. Watched "The Notebook" 2 times today.
11. Going to end this now so that I might take una shower.
So yes, thats my life right now. Yes I know comments are lacking, im not going to say anything accept im sorry and just deal with it... i've had a long fucking month and if there are problems its just a click away to banish me from your lives.
AND on a lighter note....Saturday is the 12th and thus marks the 3rd XD XD XD XD XD XD!!!!

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Tue, 08 Feb 2005 16:48:50 GMT

Happy belated Birthday to <lj user-sayyouwontcare7>

Hrm ....yes....

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Sat, 05 Feb 2005 16:22:43 GMT

Give love to jaysoad ... he's having a rough week... I love you dahlin'.

Well... the idea was that I was going to wake up super early this morning, but either Jayness decided not to call, or I slept through the phone.... either option is equally plausable. So here is my conclusion that I came to at like ... 9:00am this morning...

I'm moving out in a week, in 13 months Im moving to Massachu.. I work in a Deli... and i've lost all writing talents.

So what should I do????? I need to make some serious changes.. .I need to get some sort of direction. I only have 2 things for certain in the distant future, and while they are...amazing things...bloody amazing things, there has to be more for those bloody amazing things to work out. One I need a career, not a job. Well what do I want to do, and what is it going to take for me to get there????

I want to write, not journalizm, Newshawk taught me I never had talent in that regard to begin with... no I want to write books. Unfortunatly I'm no good, so that is not going to happen... I need a back-up plan...perhaps a business...the cafe? That would require a few classes in Restaurant management and business...no problem... but then i was really thinking and you know what would be damned cool?

AN INN... WITH a cafe...

But could I pull it off????? I dont know... it would take years and a lot of school... do i really want to do that??? *sigh* and if i did, where??? I dont know, what I do know is that I cannot stand working in a Deli anymore, or in a theater or ... I hate odds n'ends... and i have to...MUST make more money than 6.75 an hour.

So yes.

"cause splashy splashy is the aquatic equivilant of "do you want a cup of coffee'" -Eddie

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Fri, 04 Feb 2005 04:17:47 GMT

Japanese vodka: so funny LOL
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: LOL

MusiqueDeLaNuit2: heyyyy has my other half been spotted since around 10??

Japanese vodka: Nooope. I just got on
Japanese vodka: LOL
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: lol damn
Japanese vodka: I was with my...other half..he came into work at like..9:45 and helped me and we returned a movie and said goodbye 10000000000 times..as if he was leaving for 5 million years.
Japanese vodka: XD
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: lmao
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: my other half called at 10 but i was at a ...crazy church thing
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: which, by the way, was worth it for entertainment value
Japanese vodka: seriously..for 15 minutes *kiss* have fun..I'll try..I love you..try not to go insane at work (oh..I'll make n LJ entry about the dorks of Ortonville)..
Japanese vodka: LMAO. what happened?
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: people were like...throwing themselves on the floor....speaking gibberish... screaming.
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: why do people toss their hands in the air when they sing hymns???? "if i could just...get...that...much...closer...almost...there......"
Japanese vodka: lmao.
Japanese vodka: You:O_O;;;;
Japanese vodka: XD
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: yes
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: lol
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: i just litteraly STOOD there the entire time, poised to run in case things started leaning less on the funny side and more on the spooky side
Japanese vodka: XD!!!
Japanese vodka: "Im sorry Im not FROM your country"
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: LOL
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: have to go...my grandmother is on fire
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: the whole itme he was talking about premarital sex i... was thinking how nice it would be to ...request a cup of coffee with Jayness in the cafe....
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: <.<
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: im a sinner. *guilt...sort of*
Japanese vodka: XD!
Japanese vodka: *not really??*
Japanese vodka: XD
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: *aye* lol
Japanese vodka: aye
MusiqueDeLaNuit2: im so posting this...

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Thu, 03 Feb 2005 19:51:43 GMT

No but really, packing is a whore.

"heard about you in a country love song, summer night beauty took my breath away.."-damn good song

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Thu, 03 Feb 2005 05:46:35 GMT

....im irritated. Nothing im not used to...somewhat crap nonetheless. im going to bed. fucking emo crap.

"In my mind i've already imagined our bodies entwining defensless and silent" -PotO

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Wed, 02 Feb 2005 00:41:36 GMT

"Now you are here with me, no second thoughts, i've decided...decided."

Well I need to take a minute and say thanks to everyone who left me a supportive message.. you know who you are, and it meant a ton.
My father is just fine... my family enjoys terrifying me is all it seems. ...James...as always, was amazing.
I have very much of my room either packed or on my bed x.x

so....
Tomorrow: I work 4-10
Thurs: NO WORK, PAYDAY ayayayayayayay! and also possibly going to church with Lori so I can meet this James character.
Friday: NO WORK
Saturday.... work. 5-10... pointless....pointless shift... >.< waste of time arg.
Sunday: ... Superbowl...go Patriots..hope I spelled that right x.x I hope they win, as that would put a smile on my darlings face and 70 dollars in my pocket. But i'll not be watching the game as I will be working from 1:30-10:00 x.x
Monday: I dont know lol...no schedual as of yet for work
same...goes...all week... until thurs which is payday...and then friday is move out day...saturday is a day off...and then monday is Valentine's day which i will be spending on the phone..gotta go cancel that now ....oops...bai

"we'll get there fast and then we'll take it slow." - ....doh

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Tue, 01 Feb 2005 15:33:19 GMT

dad got into an accident ... all i know is that its "bad." >.< so im reduced to waiting once more ;.; >.

"ummm...I dont know too many people that are into sex and pineapple..."-Jayness XD

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Sun, 30 Jan 2005 16:25:10 GMT

...I told you I was going to do it. And just so that doesnt look completely out there... *trying to explain that conversation* o.o. Alright, well ..you know what, I sort of cant. I guess it involves me saying that I wanted sex, then a bit later that I wanted pineapple...though not simultaneously...Jay pointed out that it was a pretty obvious fact, and i mentioned that some people are into that and... *sigh* alright so it was compeltely out there >.<
Moving right along. I have work today. 1:30-10:00.... ugh. then im getting up at 6:30 tomorrow...and...*sigh* im lonely lol i just realized im sad again. going to go bai.

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Fri, 28 Jan 2005 22:00:32 GMT

The Sound Of Silence

Hello darkness, my old friend. I've come to talk with you again.
Because a vision softly creeping left its seeds while I was sleeping
and the vision that was planted in my brain still remains within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone, narrow streets of cobblestone
‘neath the halo of a street lamp, I turned my collar to the cold and damp
when my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
that split the night and touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking, people hearing without listening.
People writing songs that voices never shared, no one dared disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools," said I, "you do not know, silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you, take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell and echoed in the wells of silence.

And the people bowed and prayed to the neon god they made
and the sign flashed out its warning in the words that it was forming.
And the sign said "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
and tenement halls and whispered in the sound of silence."</jj-cut>

Well here I sit on the phone talking to Kristi. I'm going through a worthless phase, hopefully this one will be cut short by my impending move out date... which will help only because I dont have the time to sit and stew on it. Im not really sure what the reasoning behind it is, and i havnt even been able to pinpoint it until like...now.. but that I suppose is why I've been all irritable and depressive the past couple days. I dont know, it seems... perhaps its stress... a lot of things have changed in a very short amount of time ... and we all know how well I do with change *rolls eyes*. jaysoad should be happy though, I've decided to play WoW .... a girl I work with finally talked me into it... hopefully it'll be decent on dial up.
So yes, in case you didnt catch on to that... we did actually get the apartment so ... yes thats fantastic...except that nagging little "well renee you WOULD be ready if you had a car" thing... well yes, I do OWN a car... it just...doesnt move. I mean, without a tow >.< damnit. If I had say...an extra 300 dollars right now...things would be perfect...absolutly amazing. So yeah if anyone has an extra 300 dollars lying around that ya wanna get rid of >.< >.< "when money grows on trees, people live in peace.." I'm still *not* procrastonating on packing >.> I have all my fragile stuff sort of done. And I have..no shower curtain whatsoever. dont feel like writing anymore

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Thu, 27 Jan 2005 16:30:01 GMT

I find myself in a state of vague irritation, with no logical reason so to feel.

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Tue, 25 Jan 2005 16:48:45 GMT

Good: 1. I have the day off 2. I got an apartment 3. My friends are amazing and supportive 4. Jay is amazing, in every sense of the word. Bad: 1. I'm responible for the death of my dog 2. I have the day off 3. I have no money 4. I have to out 80 dollars on my credit card 5. I cant go to massachu for valentines day 6. Valentines day is cursed. 7. I have no time to do..anything 8. My move out boxes are wet 9. Natalie Portman was on my welcome screen u.u Yeah. Well I have my friends, I have my Jayness,and Wizzer is still here.... ....Rest in peace Beast....you're a good boy.

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Mon, 24 Jan 2005 01:38:29 GMT

well i wrote you all an entry before but its gone now. Today sucks. Today sucks very badly.

arg.

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Sat, 22 Jan 2005 16:11:26 GMT

Puits qui est bien. Je n'ai rien mieux faire que reposent et attendent
le téléphone. 2:00am et rien à mieux faire. Je semble avoir l'effet
de fatigué sur les personnes près des lesquelles j'obtiens. Je ne
suis pas fou. Son amende, naturellement.

"Red- I feel my soul on fire ...Black- My world if she's not there.."

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Fri, 21 Jan 2005 15:08:01 GMT

Yeah I know im a slacker. The way it looks is that you're all going to have to get used to it. Im sorry but thats just how its looking.
Had a long and amazingly honest talk with Kristi last night, I know it wasnt the easiest thing for her to hear and it certainly wasnt the easiest thing to say... but "silence like a cancer grows" and if something happened and i DIDNT talk to her before, i'd never ever forgive myself.
It sucks though, cause Jay's phone died ;.; lol GOD i've come to need him so much. Not like... in a weird im going to suck your soul way.. just... it didnt feel right going to sleep without ... i mean we said goodbye when his phone started beeping but... i miss him. lol. All i want to do is talk to him.. thats ALL I want to do. Im going to refrain from calling him though, as I would seem like a stalker once more and...you know. o.o god.
my dog is really sick ;.; we dont know why, we know he didnt get into anything, and he was just fine last night. I'm worried just because health-wise he's a tempremental breed and we have no health history to go by for him. Its sad... he just lays there and looks at us... he keeps getting sick and whatever... and yes, we called a vet. Several vets. One cant possibly get us in until tomorrow (which, he's our regular vet and if he could get us in i KNOW he would...he's pulled all-nighters at no charge when Jakers drank antifreeze) and the other wouldnt take a "wild" breed with no medical history outside of the shelter...which is also understandable. It doesnt change the fact that my dog is sick ;.;.
I...miss Jayness >.< I'm doing the best I can to go down valentine's day... we shall see.

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Thu, 20 Jan 2005 20:32:50 GMT

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ this is a thingy I made out of complete lack of anything else to do. Its my eye. It says ...eye.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"On my lips he left a kiss, all my life i'll dream of this lovely, lovely night." - Cinderella

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Mon, 17 Jan 2005 18:56:53 GMT

Well I'm back. I must admit that this is just so much better than "Frikin' Canada" ... and yet... not nearly so good as Massachu. Alright, let me start a la le beginning. So the original idea was that Kristi and I were going to take a drive down to Massachu to see Jayness. Well, due to unavalibility, Kristi could not go. So I told my parents I was going alone... now this is the morning I was to leave. Dad told me that if I went alone that day, he was going to kick me out because he didnt want me to go alone. Well you can imagine how well that went over. I told him that it that was just fine by me, and if he was so scared he was welcome to go with me. Which is true. I love travelling with my dad, every vacation i've taken since I was a toddler (excluding choir) has been just father and I. So 2.5 hours later I was riding in the car with my mother and little sister.. ?.? says I. As it would turn out, as soon as I went to talk to Kristi before the trip the transmission in my NEW CAR died. What the FUCK? SO it was actually very good of my mother to take me, when she definatly didnt have to at that point. The thing about my mother is this: She didnt want to be there. She (apparently) cannot drive at all. She has no navigation skills WHATSOEVER. *stress* So she was a bitchy nervous wreak. Me: "alright, now merge onto the QEW" Mom: "I dont think we have to ..." Me: "Mom.... this lane is going to end you need to get over." Mom: "...how?" Me: "O.O! Let me drive!" mom: "Are you crazy????!" me: "O.O;;;;;;; get INTO that lane!" Mom: "Where do I go?" Me: " into that Lane!!!!" Mom: " Do I want to be there??" Me: "YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE THE LANE WILL END >..< we nearly died. Though I must admit, it was uh... easier to bear with Jay right there. We went to a whaling museum ....no i dont know if i spelled either of those right, but that was really cool. Violent, but cool. Im not entirely sure my mind was on whales. ooooo and there was this little stuffed animal it was a leopard seal and... i resisted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was amazingly proud of myself. My sister had an awsome time there too, she wants to go back. After that, Jay took us to the Ocean, it was the first time I've ever seen it and it was absolutly amazing. ^___^ then he helped my sister find seashells... it was absolutly adorable. After the beach, we went back to the hotel room. Yes, "the" hotel room. The one hotel room, avec my mother and my sister *irritated*. but we played a couple rousing games of "go Fish" which through the cunning use of ...luck...i won. After that, we went to Ruby Tuesdays and I met his mum and dad. I believe that went well, as far as I can tell they dont hate me, which is nice because I thought they were very nice indeed. Me being the brilliance that I am, I completely forgot to print out reverse directions from Massachu and Jay was nice enough to print some out for me. Though not going back would have been just fine by me. So I got to meet his brother and sister for a short while, and see his house which was very nice. ^___^ Then we got back to the room and went for a walk, ended up...not walking. which was also nice. Then he had to leave. I promised him I wouldnt cry, and that I would just smile....well I tried anyway. I really really tried. The absolute hardest thing in the world was watching him drive away. God... just... one more day. "One more day, one more time. One more sunset baby ....i'd be satisfied... but then again... I know what it would do... leave me wishing still for one more day with you." ...that song HAD to come on just as we left the hotel the next morning. I almost cried, and mom yelled at me. >.< I just reminded her how hard it was for her to leave dad, and she was only going away for a day... lord only knows when I'll see Jay again. >.< But all and all...the 24 hours on the road, the fights with mom, the risk of getting kicked out... i'd do it all again..and again...and again. It was more then worth it. ^___^

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Wed, 12 Jan 2005 05:09:51 GMT

Lines have been crossed. Trampled. Im pissed as all hell, confused as fuck, and i need like... *smiles slightly* this weekend. x.x im supposed to be vacationing to help someone out, i think they're doing more help to me... heh... go figure.
Those wonderful little feelings keep creeping up in me again. This time, however, I have a reason to live, a reason to laugh at those feelings and know that no matter what, i'll get through it. Thanks babe :-)

"Tomorrow just as you suggest, pressed and dressed Jane and Michael will be at your side." - Mary P.

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Tue, 11 Jan 2005 16:55:44 GMT

I am insanely torn into emotional bits at the moment. Something ...fantastic... has happened, and I want to talk about it here but *sigh* I cannot. Heather knows how this kills me lol.
But along with the amazingly good comes the... not so good. Or rather, at least.. the amazingly difficult to ...deal with. In the short of things, I'm taking a small trip starting on Friday afternoon. Between preperation for that trip, work, and the trip itself, I wont be around much. If such drama continues to occur, it may be awhile before im on again at all. So please, everyone keep safe, smile, and i'll see all of you when I can.
~ Naya

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Fri, 07 Jan 2005 19:24:14 GMT

whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i SO just got Goddesses package!!!!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Nancah I LOVE IT !!!! I *LOVE* the necklace which i am now wearing ALWAYS and I LOVEEE the bracelet which keeps stabbing my mother LOL which is why i LOVEEE it !!!!!!! eheeheheh! And the CDS!!!! I havnt heard either of them but now that I have they go STRAIGHT into meh car for cruise tunes!!!!!!! and the pin! its SO on my purse forevah! and you have amazing handwriting! I lurve you! *hugs!* <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<3

"fight to the death? but this is canteen.. i work here..." - Eddie

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Fri, 07 Jan 2005 17:54:19 GMT

HAH I totaly made Josh a user info picture... he better use it too... u.u else I shall slaughter him. Buwahahah
Going to Great Lakes to spend gift certificate now hehehe

........OMG and I just remembered im DEFINATLY needing to see White Noise XD

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Fri, 07 Jan 2005 15:41:06 GMT

A girl died in 1933 by a homicidal murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was ronsly omg: suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded.

...well better safe than sorry. If half my friends list hadnt posted the damn thing..

"I have to be with you..to live..to breathe... you're taking over me."

musiquedelanuit2@aol.com — Thu, 06 Jan 2005 19:39:46 GMT

"You saw me mourning my love for you, and touched my hand. I knew you loved me then."

Going to get car insurence. Just got back from doing so, and now getting ready for work. Jayness XD is sexah. I lovveeee him. Sincerely, no one makes me happier.
Bai for today guys!
~ Naya